Happiness?

Been feeling horribly depressed for a while... But the last few days have actually been OK. Propably because I've taken double dose of my meds in order to stay alive. But the point is, I'm feelin good, I'm losing weight and I'm not cutting myself.
So, way to go I quess. Gotta ask my doctor to up the dose of my meds, so I wouldn't feel so quilty for taking too many... I just feel like it's really necessary right now.

I feel somehow calm and NORMAL. No moodswings, no numbness, no anything. It's like I live in a world of candy cotton. Is this what happiness is supposed to feel like or am I just high on my meds?

Gosh I love coffee. Tastes so good, keeps me awake and takes away the hunger pains... Oh, thank you to the person who invented this nectar of life. <3

Gods, I'm addicted to blogging. I just have the constant urge to write all the time! I've actually had a bit of a writer's block lately, so this is good news... Awesome!