Sorry for not updating in such a long time

Hello again guys...
It's sure been a while. Been busy with my other blogs, for example: http://thinspop1ctures.blogspot.com/

I currently weigh about 70 kilos, so I seriously haven't made any progress. I hate it. I seem to be stuck at this weight, no matter what I do. And it doesn't help that I see my mom more often nowadays - she always forces me to eat all sorts of fatty shit. :(

I just purged some cookies and I feel like crap. I get the feeling that i didn't get them all out... :/

Basically, today has been horrible. Being depressed -> binging n' purging.

Foolin around w GIMP

Lolol, i'm ridiculously fat... XD I wanna be like the black n white image. But that's not actually possible, thanks to my bone structure. My ribs would stick out more if i was that skinny at least... and hipbones.
But yay for the superb celebrity diet - photomanipulation!

Pics I took yesterday

Today's morning weight was 69,0. Yesterday 'twas 70,something. Sheesh. So it's mainly waterweight... <3

I fucking hate myself

I'm such a fat pig... ARGH. TOMORROW I'M GOING ON A FUCKING FAST. I can't take this shit anymore!
Please, ana, give me strength.

Today has been pretty good...

Morning weight 69,5kg. Which sucks, but at least it isn't higher than yesterday. :) I ate some chicken-mozzarella salad (no idea of the calories) a bit oh strawberry sorbet (30kcal) and one can of spam (not sugarfree unfortunately). But I'm still quite pleased with myself, as long as I don't give up to the urge to binge in the evening as I usually do.

I've been feeling actually happy today (despite the horrible hangover, migraine and upset stomach). Got some new music on my Ipod andandand~~ Yay! :)

I miss my darling though :( I wish she'd get better soon...

My weaknesses

-Low self control
-Midnight snacks
-Wrong foods
-Too big portions
-The craving for carbs :(

I'm such a fat pig

I don't even want to look at skinny people right now. I feel incredibly BIG.... 70 fucking kilos. I'm a stupid, ugly whale. I fuckin hate myself.

about 69 kilos...

Shit, shit, shit. Fuck you Mia, fuck You. Making me eat all that shit... ARGH. I'm so mad at myself and I can't sleep at all.
Feelin pretty goddamn anxious... :/
Sorry for being such a crappy ana girl.

Some thinspo for you guys:

another day goes by

i feel lice crap, as usual. Eaten like a fuckin pig, got drunk again and i want to cut SO DESPERATELY. Argh!!! I fuckin hate espoo... I hope i can go back to hyvinkää soon and get my self control back. I dont even have a pc here, i have to use blogger from my fuckin cellphone...

68,5

Got wasted yesterday. 'twas goddamn fun, but oh, all those empty calories... :/ Well, actually I don't care a shit right now, because today is going to be better. ;)