Today has been pretty good...

Morning weight 69,5kg. Which sucks, but at least it isn't higher than yesterday. :) I ate some chicken-mozzarella salad (no idea of the calories) a bit oh strawberry sorbet (30kcal) and one can of spam (not sugarfree unfortunately). But I'm still quite pleased with myself, as long as I don't give up to the urge to binge in the evening as I usually do.

I've been feeling actually happy today (despite the horrible hangover, migraine and upset stomach). Got some new music on my Ipod andandand~~ Yay! :)

I miss my darling though :( I wish she'd get better soon...

My weaknesses

-Low self control
-Midnight snacks
-Wrong foods
-Too big portions
-The craving for carbs :(

68,4 kg

Feeling a bit tired and cranky. Gotta take my meds and some coffee... And some cucumber for breakfast.

I feel incredibly fat although my weight has dropped a bit again.. Well, I quess a long walk will help for that a bit. I always feel better after moving around a bit. :) 

I'm so happy to be with you!

Yesterday and today have been AWESOME. I mean... i've got a girlfriend now, have lost 300 grams since yesterday morning and feel overall awesome! :) I don't remember when was the last time feeling like this... All I know is that I am happy and in love...

We're dieting together with my gf, which is great.. It's always easier to keep yourself in control when there's somebody to watch over you. And I also tend to binge when I'm feeling crappy, but now I feel like I'm filled with love and happiness and don't need to eat at all! It feels just incredible! <3

I've had about 800cals today, which I quess is not too bad.. But not too good either. Well, sure better than yesterday (damn u alcohol). :)

I'M SO HAPPY! <3

Thinspo time!

Crappy day

My neighbour seems to be busy drilling holes in his walls or something. The noise is TERRIBLE. Not necessarily helping my crankiness... i hope coffee will help and his drill will die soon. My I-pod is being moody as well.
Great day, eh?

I wish I could get my snakebites soon... *sigh* being poor sucks sometimes. I'm almost out of smokes as well. SHIIIITTTT. What the hell is wrong with this day?

But, after a huge laxative bomb, I dropped from 69,5 to 69,1. I know, it's useless, but at least I don't feel as bloated now...

Happiness?

Been feeling horribly depressed for a while... But the last few days have actually been OK. Propably because I've taken double dose of my meds in order to stay alive. But the point is, I'm feelin good, I'm losing weight and I'm not cutting myself.
So, way to go I quess. Gotta ask my doctor to up the dose of my meds, so I wouldn't feel so quilty for taking too many... I just feel like it's really necessary right now.

I feel somehow calm and NORMAL. No moodswings, no numbness, no anything. It's like I live in a world of candy cotton. Is this what happiness is supposed to feel like or am I just high on my meds?

Gosh I love coffee. Tastes so good, keeps me awake and takes away the hunger pains... Oh, thank you to the person who invented this nectar of life. <3

Gods, I'm addicted to blogging. I just have the constant urge to write all the time! I've actually had a bit of a writer's block lately, so this is good news... Awesome!

Randomity and thinspo

About 800 calories today... Not pleased with that. I ate some porridge and apples though, so i think it's at least healthy. :D And drank lots of tea...

I'm propably trying to fast tomorrow, not sure how it will go. And if my biological mom will drop by to visit... goodbye, fasting. But hey, I'm not in a hurry. "It doesn't matter how slow you go, just as long as you don't stop."

Some thinspo: