Today has been pretty good...

Morning weight 69,5kg. Which sucks, but at least it isn't higher than yesterday. :) I ate some chicken-mozzarella salad (no idea of the calories) a bit oh strawberry sorbet (30kcal) and one can of spam (not sugarfree unfortunately). But I'm still quite pleased with myself, as long as I don't give up to the urge to binge in the evening as I usually do.

I've been feeling actually happy today (despite the horrible hangover, migraine and upset stomach). Got some new music on my Ipod andandand~~ Yay! :)

I miss my darling though :( I wish she'd get better soon...

Damn borderline personality disorder is hard to deal with. The mood swings are horrible again... A while ago I was all hyper, and like 5 minutes later i cut myself. I'm such a moron. Seriously, this is just ridiculous!
...Thinking about a small OD on mood stabilizers, I'd like to feel like a zombie for a while again... I can't take it anymore, I just want this all to go away. I don't do it because I want to die, I dot it because I want to live.

I wish SHE was here. She always makes me feel so good. About myself and about everything. She's always such a sunny person even though she's had her hardships too. I just love her. I love her so much it hurts... <3
And I miss her. She's sick at home right now, which is kinda sad because I have to leave to Espoo tomorrow (to see my mom and to therapy) and on monday we're leaving to estonia for one day trip with my mom.. So I won't see her until next week. Although, I'll come back from estonia with tons of booze (it's cheap there), so we can get wasted together, which could be ridiculously fun. xD

...Writing really helps to deal with difficult emotions. I feel much better already. Thank you my dear blog. <3